Sorry that I haven’t really been posting any meaningful posts lately!
I’ve just been really busy with… doing nothing, haha :P but that definitely isn’t an excuse. I’m extremely sorry about clouding up your dashboards with these picture-reblogging nonsense. I haven’t been on the computer a lot, just been using my iPhone so basically when I’m bored no matter where I am I just scroll, scroll, scroll, like, reblog and it keeps going on continuously.
But mainly, nothing close to being thoughtful has come out of my blog because I have nothing to be really inspired about. Not inspired as in, I’m content with where I am at the moment. Nothing extremely joyous or something terrible has been happening for me to be inspired to type anything really. &that’s what it usually is. Looking back at previous posts, sometimes I smile because things have been resolved or a smack myself in the head thinking to myself how stupid of me I was to think like that. I know this is very messy and a bit too many thoughts at one time but my main thing is that with this contentment and change in me as a person … I’ve really just matured in my own way.
My point of views have changed but I think I’m one step closer to finding myself. One step closer to finally figuring out my point in this life. One step closer to being completely me and just finally loving myself for who I am and not being so indifferent on everything I do just because I’m unsure of what the real me is all about.
I know this really sounds like a jumble of words but I just wanted to spill out my thoughts lol.
Basically, what I think I’m trying to say is that God is really doing a great work in my life and I can feel it. Maybe I’m not perfect and I still make mistakes but I finally have realized that yes I can make a difference and actually be used as a tool for God in me finally figuring out who I am as a person which really is the biggest struggle for us as teenagers.
I know that if whoever is reading this seems like there’s a big chunk missing from how I was feeling a while ago from my most recents posts about stupid stuff and now … but let’s just say better days came :]
So bad. I’m miserable here.
I mean I love all the medical stuff we’re learning, but it feels like highschool all over again.
Frick, I hate people. I hate everyone here. I just feel so lonely.
So many stupid cliques. I mean damn. Be mature at least. This is a forum to be a doctor. Doctors aren’t as immature as you freaking douchebags. Stupid white preppy rich girls and jerk-offs thinking the world revolves around them.
Well at least I have my school friend here… Oh wait she found new friends too. How wonderful. I look forward to going home to REAL friends and REAL people.
I think it’s cute when guys have a weaker side to them. Like from their outer appearance they seem all immature, mean, and/or tough, but there’s just another hidden angle that no one has seen from them before. For example: if they watch chick flicks or dramas, adore girlie things, think puppies are cute, etc. It may seem weird to you, but I like that type of side that a boy might have.
You talk to someone new. They become a daily routine of yours. Talking all day everyday. Then there comes a day where you guys don’t talk. No reason at all, but you can’t help but ask— Why? You get a kinda sad. Days pass and you come to find out that you’ve been simply replaced. Repeat.